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my life in several acronyms
Hi, my name is Omen Drals. I have no age, and I refuse to get one. I change my gender every now and then. I write crappy poems, novels, short stories, draw some awful drawings and - occasionally - compose a few pathetic song. :)
Please keep in mind that I’m not a native speaker of English (you’ll see, trust me, hahaha!) therefore I apologize in advance for any Hunglish, grammar, syntax or spelling mistakes. I would also like to apologize for those mistakes that don’t even make sense when it comes to how could they happen - I don’t know, they just do. *hides*
(If you find this stupid rant too long to read let me help you. It’s a long, completely meaningless babbling that comes down to one thing: this is not the reality I wanted. Thank you for your attention, have a nice day!)
Unconditional love behind the glass
Recently the topic of fans disrespecting their favourite idols’ privacy was brought to light yet again (this time it was a wedding they made uncomfortable) although it’s a problem that keeps lurking in the back of most (sane) fans’ mind constantly. You know that it happens to these idols every single day - we have heard of cameras installed in parking lots so they can spy on their “chosen one” whenever he leaves or arrives home, we heard about fans breaking into the apartments of several idols, recording their idols on a funeral, poisoning an idol, hitting and slapping an other one, and of course the taxi chasing is literally an everyday sight. This list could probably go on - one can only guess exactly how creative these stalkers (I personally see them as criminals actually) can get when it comes to breaking havoc. You might have also heard of how hard the agencies try to conceal the stalker fan issue. They don’t want anyone to even suspect any kind of connection between such dark things and their idols who are intended to bring simple, bright emotions. Also, you never ever sue a fan - even if in reality that can hardly be called a “fan”, but still - you don’t bite the hand that feeds you. The fan is not to be sued or seen as responsible, or any of these sacrilegious ideas. But later on this one.
As strange as it might sound to some of you, I can not help but feel intrigued by and attracted to this topic. I find it fascinating and interesting simply because I can smell the depth this issue most probably has that is completely overshadowed by the fans’ simple words of concern you hear and read whenever this topic comes up. I, for one, am completely sure that this is not a simple problem, not even close to black and white, and - lo and behold - it is a problem that you have to do some thinking to get a whole picture of the people responsible on the grand scale for such things to take place to begin with. So, to put it boldly: it’s quite not only these stalkers to blame. They were created by the very same power that gives birth to the whole idol culture (if we can be as grand to label it as such). Also, be warned: idols get their - vast amount of - attention by their fans. I’m more interested in these nameless people, these “private” fans as they are called.
So, let’s forget about idols, “sasaengs”, the whole drama and noisiness, and let’s talk about love instead (didn’t see that one coming after such intro, did you? ^^”). Love - both romantic and non-romantic - is easily the most desired feeling that has ever entered human consciousness, or rather: the feeling of being loved. Now, our world is quite sick, don’t you guys feel that sometimes? We value each other by measures that were never meant to used on human beings.
Appearance is valued as the most precious thing, admit it or not. No one gives a flying about your “beautiful inside” if it does not come with a beautiful face as well ( but not vica- versa). Add to the picture that many of us are not that perfect on the inside either. Also, your money. Your skills. Your belongings. Your talents. Oh, your talents! The holy shallowness we invented. I have seen a whole youtube comment WAR (not even exaggerating here!) on whether beauty is a talent or not. They were fans of HyunA defending her with this - that her appearance is her “talent” when she was accused of having no talent. I have no opinion on this, as I don’t care much for that lady myself.
Natural beauty, talent you born with and often times even wealth is something that you just born with (most of the times children born into a certain social class can not surpass their parents, ever - the children of the poor become poor themselves, the children of the wealthy however…). But you are indeed valued by these, and valued by these exclusively. How harsh - that the you part of you does not concern anyone, often times not even your family members.
In a cold world like this which is filled with people having no talent nor beauty love is something that these people can often times just read about in books and imagine what it might be like. Also in this very same world anything can be made into profit. Anything, just name a price, really. Feeding on lonely people’s desire for love and attention is not even new, only the ways of doing it changes with technology.
The whole idol industry is one way to harvest these desires among other things. It sells you images of men and women (fabricated ones, but still) who are polite, funny, smart and loving - and what they love the most is you, of course. Anything is for the fan, the idol only concerns him and herself with the pleasure of the fan, they take responsibility for that concern (have you heard what the closing fanclubs of L had to say as a goodbye just recently?), and basically everything is about the fan. The fanclub is even given a name to make it feel even more close, even more personal (not simply my “fans” that’s too vague… the Jumping Boas! The EXOtics! The Elfs! Cassiopeia! Wear it as your new name - that connects us!).
For some people - and this will sound very depressing - this is the most attention they have ever received (or will receive for that matter). In this dark, cold world there is this shining place with these wild colours and happy faces and they care about me a lot! Whoever I am! This kind of gives you an idea why many fans are completely lethal when an idol is found out to have a girlfriend or boyfriend - the idol is literally cheating on them! The silent promise was found out to be a lie (of course, duh) that this idol only loves the fan. That’s why they are furious when it happens and many times try to destroy said idols carrier completely. Because that’s how a person who just found out that he/she has been cheated on behaves. As cruel as it sounds, this is a predictable reaction, actually: almost natural.
However, can we safely assume that these people (the fans) really are in a delusional love with these idols simply because of these symptoms? Or is this disease have roots deeper in the ground (about six feet under)? Let us ponder on this for a while and not forget fanbases change, and have people in common. That means, fans often times forget about one idol and move on to an other, or love more at the same time, right? Well, that’s not really love then… Because the fan cheats as well.
My humble theory* is that idols only mediators for these sasaeng fans. The product they sell (let’s not ever forget!) is love, not the idols themselves. Therefore they act only as a tool to get somehow closer to the desired feeling (love in any form possible) and that would provide us with a legitimate reason as to why these fans are so rude or aggressive to their idols sometimes. Because their target is not the idol, not the (fake) persona it represents but the love it offers. And as flies to the bare, exposed light bulb these damaged souls are attracted to this industry and anything it produces because this industry could not try harder to seem more approachable and get closer to its own fanbase.
My personal outlook on this whole phenomenon is that if we could only care about each other (and I’m so tired of this “a little”, no, we should care a LOT more, we act like psychopaths sometimes) you would never have to come across depressing rants like this, but I’m afraid your favourite idols would have to start looking for an other job too.
In this colourful, shiny little world behind the glass these fans looking at their idols through as they hold love as their product that is so close, only a step afar yet completely unattainable because they can’t see the door in.
*And not the ultimate truth that I want to force onto you so that you have to accept and preach it and subject yourself to it - don’t feel pressured because the length of this lame rant.
This weekend, two students in my school committed suicide. A few upperclassmen got thousands of sticky notes and wrote nice sayings on them and put one on every single locker in the school in hopes of lifting everyone’s spirits and making sure everyone knows that they aren’t alone
((This deserves more notes.))
If you don’t note this or Reblog this… You have no soul
School needs more of this kind of positive support amongst each other.
Phil Straub Composition Tutorial (go to the original page for much more information, pictures, and different types of composition)
The Golden Rule — “The golden rule can and usually is applied to a paintings canvas proportions. As you read through the following text you’ll notice that most of the imagery presented utilizes similar dimensions and almost all of them fall into the golden rectangle. Today you can find the Golden Rectangle almost everywhere: from credit cards to phone cards to book covers, all are shaped with its proportions.
The imagery below represents the division of space when the “golden rule” is applied to a blank canvas. Basically it is the division of a line in two sections, where the ratio between the smallest section and the largest section is identical to the ratio between the largest section and the entire length of the line. In other words A/B = B/(A+B). The ratio is about 1/1.618. Honestly, I’m still not exactly sure what that all means? but, I do know that I used this grid layout a-lot when I first started painting and found it helpful. I still do.”
Rule of Thirds— “From the golden rule came the “rule of thirds” which is virtually the same concept but slightly altered to fit photographic proportions. I find it a bit easier to follow since it’s very simple in its origin.Here we have a look at the rule of thirds in action.
Notice that the main focal point sits right almost directly over one of the “golden means.” Additionally, other objects are placed near the other converging lines (the bird, for example) but, not directly on them, since that would create competition for the focal point.”
Implied Forms (Circular) — “The Circle is made up of a continuous ‘Curve’ and it’s circular movement keeps the eye in the picture frame. There are many circles in nature and man made objects. You can use the circle in a very obvious way in your composition or simply suggest it.”
Implied Forms (Radii) — “Is a connection of ‘Lines’ meeting in the Center and an expansion of ‘Lines’ leaving the Center. The Radii is usually found in Nature Subjects. The best example of the man made Radii is the spokes of a wheel.
The eye has two ways to go when it comes upon the Radii. It can either be drawn in to the picture area or it can be led out of the picture area. You must be careful how you used the Radii and try to have the eye led into the picture.”
Cross composition — “A showing of ‘Opposing Force’ that will give the picture a feeling of Cohesion and Relationship. The horizontal bar of the Cross will act as a “stopper’ while the vertical pole can act as a leading line. The windows in a large skyscraper will form crosses and will keep your interest in the building.”
L Composition — “This makes an attractive ‘frame’. It can be used to accentuate important subjects. Many times it is a ‘frame’ within a ‘frame’.
A tree with an overhanging branch at the ‘right’ side of the picture area will form a ‘Rectangle’ and help frame the Main Subject in the picture. By doing this you will make the Center of Interest stand out and be noticed clearly.”
OKAY IDK IF THIS HAS ALREADY MADE IT’S WAY ONTO TUMBLR, BUT I HAVEN’T SEEN IT AND I NEED IT ON MY BLOG. THIS IS ACTUALLY KINDA CUTE.
HOLY SHIT, DARREL’S STORY BECAME FAMOUS!
The. Cuteness. :’D
Just so you know, this is a rant, a rant on Akemi-tan and Kaii Syndrome’s FUCKING reception being not what i FUCKING expected…..
(i love the games, but, other fans, where are yoooouuu??? :( )
If anyone’s opinions are hurt i would like to apologize, everyone has there opinions, i just wanted to…
The reception and the actual worth of a work is very rarely related. If there’s something that can be popularized about a game (because let’s just focus on games, but actually this can be seen in literature, movies, art, you name it) it’s going to have that huge hype, while others, not so much.
Take Ib for an example: most fan groups just drool over the romance in that game (or romance they believe is in there) and the actual message in the vast majority of cases remains completely overshadowed. In the same fashion games like the Crooked Man never got the credit for its artistic value either, and that game is still more spoken about than Kona5’s works or ParaSyndrome.
So there you have it, if you want the attention of the masses you have to appeal to the masses which is often times is just disgusting. If you want a horror RPG maker game with a big hype, throw in some Mary Sue characters, tons of clichés, and as much romance as you can. Make sure it is very simple and easy to understand so the more people can relate to it in all age groups; but doing so will deprive this story from its originality (obviously) as a consequence. So you will end up with a very simple, flat storyline with flat characters but everyone can imagine anything into it, so a lot of people will like it for it. However, this will make the game lack originality and creativity; art is always specific. You choose.
If you take a look at the music industry, you will see there are very few types of songs that sell well. Love songs (happy or sad, but still a love song), and “I am who I am and you can’t do much about it” type of songs. For the same reason: these topics will be popular because anyone can imagine their own story into them since they’re so flat. None of these could make it in a poem anthology with their lyrics for this very reason either…